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Another Tired Love Song

Try to write a poem about love.
Try it.
Why can’t you do it?
Dry words come forth,
The strength of the want
Hidden
behind fluttering conviction.
My love is pure
Cry love
and let if free
Try to understand
What love has done
to me

A Different Color

A single rose sits quiet.
In a field of his dried blood,
her cherry life implodes.

The Secret Origin of Maxwell Cornelius Brass

Maxwell Cornelius Brass was born in the wee hours of the morning in Cardiff, Wales. He was the first child of Liam and Rose Cornelius, a finer couple you would be hard pressed to find in all the British Isles. Such as it was they were still a humble pair and didn’t think much of their reputation. Rose was prone to blush at the slightest compliment and Liam was quick to point out that such flattery was wasted on someone such as him.

Friends and family could tell right away that Maxwell, or “Maxie” as Rose preferred to call him, was a special youngster indeed. He has a spring in his step and a glint in his eye that prompted everyone to flutter about, saying how he was destined for great things in life. Maxwell, like his parents before him, soon learned to take these sort of things in stride.

The proudest moment of Liam and Rose’s life came when Max spoke his first words. He was exceptionally young when the moment came.

They had never expected him to go from barking to talking so quickly. Liam himself was the youngest dog in his family to start talking at only six months. Young Maxwell beat him by two.

“Hungry” was his first word. Followed by a series of barks and then “cheese” which was well known to be young Max’s favorite food. Rose and Liam couldn’t have been happier.

It wasn’t long after that when Max was sent off to America for schooling, where he was taken in by the Brass family, Elias and Angela. It was Elias who taught Maxwell everything he knew about the world of magic and sorcery. Maxwell became the most well known of all the canine warlocks by the time he turned three. Mostly due to that time he fought off a dragon who was trying to steal one of Elias Brass’ most prized cows. That sort of thing gets people talking.

The Hallway

There is a door at the end of the hallway. The door is cracked and broken. The hallway creaks and moans. The floor shifts and cracks. In your hand the flashlight sputters. In your mind the thoughts race quickly. Behind you are many voices. Ahead of you is a siren’s song.

Everything is out to get you. Nobody is around to help. You walk faster. The groans grow louder.

You slow down. The laughing begins. The wind is whistling. The house is shaking. There is no sense of direction. You touch the door and everything goes white. You turn to look but there is nothing there. Oblivion envelops you and you feel the tears well up. You don’t know where you are or why you are there. The only thing you know is warmth. The only thing you feel is light. You try to speak but forget the form of words. You project your thoughts and suddenly the world tells you that you are special.

Everybody is lying.

Witnessed

I saw something I won’t forget.

I can’t forget, really. Try doing that anyway. Actually trying to forget. It’s an impossibility. The mind doesn’t want you to forget. It just happens through passive bouts of unnoticed apathy. When you try to forget something it gets stuck in your subconscious like an ill-prepared vehicle stuck in the wet mud of an off-road trail.

I believe memory is an agent of karma. Something stays with you because your physical form is interacting with the unwritten laws of the universe. They force you to dwell upon not just the event but whatever effect upon you as a person it may have inflicted. Did it wound you?

Fix you? Destroy you?

What I saw was obviously worth the attention of the judgmental bitch of my subconscious mind. It keeps floating to the surface every so often to make me choke on my own bile.

What I saw was my wife with another man.

That’s what my eyes saw. What my soul saw was the physical manifestation of my belief that trust is a lie. I don’t think I can trust anyone anymore. If a person who made a promise before god to stay true to your love and they smash their bond to you like a glass bottle on the roadside, how can you trust anybody?

I still try to forget. But have you ever tried to do that?

Lying Liars

One of them was going to die.

I sat in the back of the smoke-filled room, my arms folded in front of me and my eyes locked on the two men standing across from each other, only a long polished oak dinner table separating them. I watched as they stood hurling obscenities and slander at each other like greedy politicians nearing election day. Spittle flew from their lips as they cursed and yelled and pointed their fingers all in a manner most heated. They both knew the gravity of the situation. They both understood exactly on what type of edge they were precariously perched. In the moment where a situation becomes a matter of life and death, a man’s instincts for survival take over and everything that society has imprinted on him; be it morals or values or a sense of honor, they all fly out the window like a canary let loose from his cage.

“You’re a lying sack of crap!” the man on the left yelled. “You don’t have the spine to admit when you screwed up and I wont stand for it.”

He was breathing heavily. Exhausted under the weight of his own argument. I watched as his chest heaved and his left eye began to twitch. The man was mere seconds away from a violent physical altercation and yet I sat, calm and steady as a rock, knowing that my place was not to interfere.

“I know better than to lie,” his opponent replied. “I know things went to hell in a hand-basket today, but lying about what happened will only make things worse. If I did what you said I did, and I’m not saying I did, because I didn’t, but if I did, why would I shoot myself in the foot yet again by lying about it when everyone knows the truth will come out sooner or later? Why? It doesn’t make sense!”

My gaze drifted to the man seated at the head of the table. His hands folded in front of him and resting gently upon his lap. His eyes were hidden under the wide brim of his fedora. He showed no emotion. No indicator of his mood showed on his face. The man was a blank slate.

“Charlie,” the man said, his voice low, a hair-touch above a whisper. “I want you to tell me your story. Tell me what happened. In your own words.”
“Of course boss,” the man on the right replied, adjusting his collar.

“And Matthew,” the old man continued, “I want you to keep your trap shut while Charlie is talking. Am I understood?”

“Yes sir,” the man to my left replied, chilled to the bone by the boss’ icy words.

“Then begin,” he said, shifting ever so slightly in his chair.

I watched as Matthew took his seat, the fiery hatred in his eyes not daring to recede as Charlie cleared his throat and began his tale.

“It all started this morning when me and Matt went with Joey Q to pick up the weekly payment from Tommy Johnson, that old jerk who runs the antique shop. Every week the guy’s supposed to kick up ten percent of his take to Joey to pay off a debt for something I don’t quite remember.”

“Does it matter?” Matthew interjected.

“I’m trying to tell the damn story, alright?”

“You’ll get your turn, Matthew,” the old man said with a nod. “Continue.”

“Thanks Boss. Anyhow, Joey Q brings me and Matt along for backup because the old codger’s been busting his balls about the payments. Says that business is slow so ten percent is taking too much out of his bottom line or some other such line of crap. So he wants to bring us with him to show the old jerk that he’s got the muscle to take the money if he doesn’t want to hand it over willingly.
“So we get to the store and Joey says to the old man ‘Do you have my money this week?’ To which the guy says ‘I’ve paid my debt and then some, you’re not getting anything else’ and so Joey busts him one across the lip to show him who’s boss. Well the old guy reaches under the counter and Mr. Shortfuse sitting over there assumes he’s going for a gun and pulls a piece of his own. Before I know what the hell is going on he’s popping six shots off into the old shop keep.”

I kept my eyes on Matthew, trying to gauge his reaction to Charlie’s story but he doesn’t flinch. He knows he’ll get his chance to tell his side of the story. He doesn’t want to give up anything before he’s had his say. He’s smart and he’s collected. He knows his place.
“Turns out Johnson was going for his stash box to get Joey his cash, but Matthew got jumpy and plugged him. Of course, the gunshots bring the kid who works the back room running out and he’s got himself a shotgun. Matthew emptied his gun into the old guy, so he’s standing there like a squirrel on a railroad crossing while this kid racks off a shotgun blast into Joey Q’s face. Of course then I pull my piece and shoot the kid twice in the chest and we high-tail it out of there before the police get there.”

As Charlie took his seat I took a glance at the boss. He didn’t offer any reaction. He was always good at that. Keeping himself in check and letting nobody get close. He’d been a crime boss for close to forty years. He came to power back when gangsters were still gangsters. The kind who could walk up to a parked car in broad daylight and empty a clip into the guy inside and walk away without fear of police action. He was the kind of gangster that people wrote books about. The kind that stood covered in the shroud of American myth and nobody knew how to get to. His name was Vito Castiglio and he was the last of his kind.

I had seen Vito in many meetings just like this one. I had watched him sit there, unmoving and unyielding, as he boiled any situation down to its core and resolved the issue with the steely resolve that came with decades of finely tuned illegal business savvy. Today would be no different. While these two idiots yelled at each other, convinced that one’s story would influence the boss to their favor, neither of them understood like I did that the outcome had been decided before either of them had stepped into the room.

“Derrick,” he told me, “I’m a patient man. More patient than most men in my business. But people will always test my patience. The fact that even with my reputation people still try to pull the wool over my eyes forces me to treat every word that comes from the mouth of anybody as inherently false. There are three sides to every story, the way one guy sees it, the way the other sees it, and the truth. I make it a point that I find the truth. Every single time. Let someone get away with a lie once and they know they can do it again. The bold grow bolder when left unimpeded. You’ve got to show them that you are above them. So far above them that they’re almost beyond notice at all. That’s how you succeed in this business.” That stuck with me. It’d been years since he gave me that speech and it still rattled in my brain like a song stuck on repeat. The way I saw it, someone like Vito Castiglio could make his own truth by sheer force, but he wouldn’t let himself work that way. I guess he could have just as easily been the greatest police detective the world had ever seen if the money was right. Vito Castiglio took enormous pride in cutting through the mystery and solving the puzzle. It was just another way to feed his ego.

It was hard to watch as Matthew told his version of the day’s events. “Look, we showed up to the store like Charlie said. Except Charlie decides he wants to play ‘Mr. Tough Guy’ and grabs the kid working there and says he’ll kill him if the old guy behind the register doesn’t pony up the dough. Turns out that old man Johnson isn’t as useless as he thought and he pulls out a shotgun from under the register and aims it square at Joe’s head. Charlie freaks and plugs away at the shopkeep, who as he’s falling down pulls the trigger, scattering Joe’s brain across the ceiling tiles. The kid rushes at me like a damn banshee and bites my damn arm so I pop him once in the head with my piece. I even got the bite marks to prove it.”

Matthew rolled up his sleeve to reveal a bandage wrapped around his upper forearm. Showing it off to Vito and proving nothing in the process. The bandage covered whatever the wound really was and for all I knew it could have been a cheap trick covering nothing at all. I wouldn’t put it past the guy. I hadn’t known Matthew long but he was a con artist to rule all con artists and my gut reaction said that bandage was a fake out.

“Are you both finished?” Vito asked looking up from the table, his pale blue eyes glinting in the dull glow of the lamp hanging overhead.

“Because my time is valuable and I have places to be.”

“I’ve said everything I have to say,” Matthew half-mumbled.

“Same goes for me,” Charlie echoed.

“Good,” the old man said.

Neither of them had time to react as the old man fired two bullets into both of them, his hand gripping a smoking gun underneath the table. The two men slumped over in their chairs and fell to the floor, groaning as the blood seeped from the holes in their gut.

“I know everything. You should have just left town, you might have lived longer,” Vito said, stepping around the table and aiming his gun at Charlie’s head. “You both had a beef with Joey and you wanted him dead. So you killed him and tried to use the shop keeper as a patsy.”

Another shot rang out as Vito put a bullet in Charlie’s head.

“You thought he would be alone, but the boy showed up and you had to take care of him. You not only cost me the money old man Johnson was kicking up every week but you betrayed one of your own to do it. And worse than that, you thought you could lie to me about it.”

Another shot and another bullet. This time into Matthew’s head.

“When you lie you dig your own grave.”

The old man handed me his gun and I wiped it clean with my handkerchief as he walked out the door letting it slam closed behind him. I shoved the gun into my waistband and walked over to where Charlie lie bleeding out onto the floor. I shook my head in frustration. I told them to be discreet. I told them never to panic. If I had known how this would have turned out I never would have asked them to kill Joey Q. I would have done it myself. The old man trusted me. In all the years I’d known him I’d been the only one to keep him fooled. All that talk and all that rhetoric meant nothing when it came to family.

My name is Derrick Castiglio and I am my father’s son.

Soup

Revenge is a dish best serve cold. That’s why I drowned the man who murdered my brother in a bowl of cold tomato soup.
In retrospect, I’m not sure if that’s what the proverb was trying to teach me, but it’s definitely in the gray area surrounding the moral. The fact that there is even a gray area surrounding the moral proves my point, wouldn’t you say?

Anyway, the bastard is dead.

It took some doing, but it’s done. Ever try to drown someone in a bowl of soup? It’s ever so frustrating. It’s a chore to hold someone underwater in the ocean, so imagine what kind of pressure needs to be applied in an attempt to suffocate another human in a single serving of tomato bisque.

How do I feel about the whole “revenge” thing now? I suppose it would be hard to argue that revenge is NOT something one wants after a transgression. I sure as hell wanted it when that simpleton killed my only living sibling. And the state wanted it when I killed him.

Hence my current residence on death row.

“Let’s kill that guy who killed the guy who killed his brother! That’s justice!” said the people, in their ignorance. If it is to act as a deterrent for me killing others the point is moot as I only had one person on my “to-kill” list so to speak, and I already bumped him off. I mean, if I had the opportunity to shove Paris Hilton in front of a bus I wouldn’t pass it up, but what are the the odds of that happening?

Good job, justice system, you’ve prevented the most outrageous hypothetical murder in the history of the world. Be sure to pat yourselves on the back if you can possibly manage to locate the hand with which to do so.

Where was I?

Oh yes, revenge. They say revenge is a dish best served cold. I guess that’s why they’ve kept me in this cell for close to eight years without putting me out of my misery. That makes sense right? Is that why they do it? I would think so.

So the moral of the story is, revenge is indeed a dish best served cold but in the end you’ll be cold and rotting in the ground anyway.

But that’s just my perspective.